Matt. 6:25-34

Check out Matthew 6:25-34: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%206:25-34;&version=31. I know much of my personal tumoil over stuff happening the past couple weeks is self-inflicted. Then I read this passage. The last line is the most relevant: "therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I get concerned over my son's future almost 24/7. This "oh my gosh what would happen..." complex. I am going to start by just dealing with today and today's concerns. It is hard to break such a cycle. But, it can and will be done. It's time to go back to finding joy in life again.

Is it over yet?

Is American Idol over yet?

It is? did someone "win"?

How.....riveting....

Well?

Doh! Missed a day. Yesterday was the hearing. It went well - all things considering. We will hear of a decision by June 9. It looks like probably an alternative school for the first semester next year. Don't know what that looks like yet. We will see then. It was about what I expected. This has been the longest couple weeks of my life. Very hard. And we have at least 4 more years of this. I don't know how I am going to hang on. I hope things settle soon. Now we are having the battle of getting homework done during this suspension. Ouch. He only has a couple more days of it from the school. I am thankful to have a lot of people to talk to and help out. This is really tough on me. Let's see how today goes. I did get some bike riding in yesterday since Mary was home then. That felt good. However, it looks I will have to be the "jailer" for a couple more days.

Yeah, that stinks...

Gettin' Through It

I have great empathy for single parents raising kids. I really do. I can't possibly imagine going through all this without Mary. Somehow, thinking about things tonight, I believe we will. For the first time in a couple weeks I really do. Oh, we may still be in for some tough results tomorrow and next week. But we will get through it. Our home is not a broken home. It is a loving one. Yep, we got problems. Who doesn't? (If you say you don't, you be fibbin' you fool!). But with God in our house and with our family, we will persevere.

Amen.

Status for the Day

I am actually looking forward to being able to get Alec back some freedom. It has been taxing on me for sure. At some point we will have to. That will be the only true way to see how he has taken everything in. Thursday is the hearing. It should be interesting. We are all a bit nervous about what may come out of it. We will just have to trust in God to guide us through.

I did pick up a couple fishing poles today. I think that he and I might do some fishing at the local pond tomorrow. I haven't fished in like forever. It should be interesting...

On another note, I have caught myself up on a lot of Rush songs for Animation. The first gig is official: Saturday, November 21st at Bobby McGee's in Chicago Ridge (around 104th and Harlem). Why so far off? There is a lot to do. First off, they are now working on the Milwaukee Summerfest gig (June 29) with the guitarist who is leaving. Then we do a few rehearsals in July. I will then take notes from them and then tweak various things with regards to what I have to play and settings I will use. Then some intensive rehearsals starting probably in September. To be a Rush tribute band, and play a lot like the studio recordings, is not like playing AC/DC with a few chords!

Whoo-boy, what a night

After a previous evening of anger, frustration, feelings of betrayal, etc., I had absolute insomnia the entire night. I don't ever remember having such a thing. I spent the whole day just laying around watching old war movies. I think I managed a little shut eye. There is so much on my mind. However, tonight I experienced something tremendous and awesome. With the help of some of my awesome Christian brothers from CCC (Carlos and JR), there was some GREAT conversation with them, my son, and I. I am so much better tonight. I am not naive enough to expect that the magic fairy dust was spread and everything becomes instantly better. However, I am hopeful that at least a seed was planted. It is now up to us and our community to help nourish it.

All I can say is...

whup, whup, I'm still here! Life at home is a challenge to say the least. We are in a crises of sorts with one of our kids. Yeah, it has the potential to be a big problem. Not good. Things are a bit uneasy here. Thursday is a big day, amongst others. If anyone is really reading this, all I can ask is to pray for our family and that we work things out together. Outside forces will be making some decisions on him. Let's hope that it will be hard enough of a hurt to change some things but still reasonable and helpful. Some progress has been made but it is baby steps right now: 2 steps forward, 1 step back. I have tremendous admiration for those who have survived raising teens. The end just seems so far out there. God help us all.

Other than that, things have been just...awesome.

See you tomorrow.

I was Reminded

Mary reminded me today that it has been over a month since my last post! Has it been that long??? Ouch! I guess now it remains to be seen: will I have something more tomorrow? Wait and see...:)