Hey, I'm still here. Haven't gone away! I think that I have been distracted a bit by some stuff that is going on at home. I won't go into details but suffice it to say it is "teenager stuff". I think that should about say it all! I can't wait until this ends. It can really take it's toll on you. Mostly I deal with trust issues. I wonder how far I can go. Am I being too naive? Or, am I doing the right thing to maintain trust on my end? I'm not talking about being a pushover. No, not that at all. I'm just trying to figure all of this stuff out. I wonder all too often if I make the right moves or not. Do I make the right decision or not? The thing is, you never really know until much later - if ever. This isn't a movie where there is a script and you know how it is going to turn out. Many times you just have to go on your gut and hope it all works out. Sometimes it doesn't though, and that is where it can really hurt. Parenting just isn't easy. Challenges are unique to every age. A friend talked to me today about troubles with their 5 year old and asked at what point does it end. I don't think it does. It just changes. You just go with it. I can say one thing now: I do ask God a lot of questions. I know he has the uber-answers. I just hope that I open my eyes and my heart enough to listen.
Well, that has been on my heart and mind as of late. I think some of you can relate. Talk to you all soon.
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